Peace

Before I went to bed I prayed for your welfare. I wished you happiness and peace. I'm not ready to reflect on the good times yet, but I made a solid heartfelt effort to let go, and this morning, when early I woke, I had a sad smile on my face. I don't know why you came into my life. I don't know why you acted the way you did, but I'm glad for the lessons I learned--even though they were hard. Pain is not my favorite--I'm a sissy and I can't stand being hurt. I do things some times that are harmful to others just so I can avoid it. And I'm sorry for the times that I hurt you, the times my fear of the pain led me to make decisions that harmed our union. One day I hope to be able to look back on the things we did together, the pictures, the videos, and I hope I can remember the love that I felt for you. You really are a wonderful person, and no actor alive could ever successfully convey the love that my eyes held when you were with me. If you ever doubt I cared, look to those films, and look to my face. I wish you nothing but love Kate. I hope you find what you're looking for. You deserve peace.