"If you're going to be a piece of shit, you might as well be a big one." I hurt my girl last night and now I'm up at 4:00 am sick to my stomach. I got carried away and couldn't calm down--my head stuck on something that wasn't a big deal. She asked me to stop, and I wouldn't, or couldn't at the time. It wasn't violent, it was just mean, and I have some fucking nerve making a woman that loves me as much as she does cry.
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Passion has two sides.
ReplyDeleteWhat makes her wonderful is who she is, and her love for you is the bonus. The unconditional part is hard when you never really did it before, but you can earn her forgiveness and learn to channel the negative passion in a different way.
I believe in you both.
As Don Miguel Ruiz said, "When you are truthful with yourself, you start to see everything as it is, not the way you want to see it. The wounds in youy emotinal body are covered by the denial sysyem. When you look at your wounds with the eyes of truth, you can finally heal your wounds" A great book to read is his "The Mastery of Love" and "The Four Agreements.
ReplyDeleteFrome personal experience, it takes time and facing your truth to learn to respond as opposed to reacting. Remember, love forgives.
Forgive youself and move on.